RANDOM THOUGHTS, BITCHING AND OTHER STUFF

Mon, 15 Jan 2007 01:45:30 GMT

Happy 2007!
Just thought I would let people know that I am still alive, I am just rarely on here anymore. I am on myspace but, I am rarely on that either.
Things are good, finally healthy after the 5th surgery in July.
Things are looking up, now if only I could find a job I dont hate.
Off to bed!
*hugs, humps and a fresh new tattoo on friday*

www.myspace.com/sara_amber

Thu, 08 Jun 2006 02:37:35 GMT

Things are good! I am going to quit make 2nd job and work extra hours at my day job making triple what I made and job 2... WOO HOO (this is all up in the air cause I am waiting for my boss to get back to me)
My best friend in the whole world gave me his shirt tonight so I could sleep in it... not only is he hot, his shirt smells amazing!!!
Things are definitely looking up! I have some absolutely amazing friends!!
51 days until surgery!
*hugs, humps and hot doctors*

Sun, 21 May 2006 21:12:29 GMT

JULY 28TH....
that's my surgery date!!
That means I will be laid up for my birthday!
That's about all I got

number 5

Thu, 18 May 2006 00:31:54 GMT

Well, I am long overdue for an update....
Went to the specialist today... and I am going to have my 5th surgery.... Oh yippee!!
I kinda knew that I was going to have to have it but, Dr Hottie confirmed it today. This is the first time I went to this doctor... and if I would have known he was young and hot I would have made myself look alittle better...LOL
Anyway, he is going to call me tomorrow to set up a date (for the surgery hehehe), he is backed up about 2 months so, hopefully it wont be on my birthday...UGH!
He is going to clean all the endometriosis out and remove the cysts and cut part of the nerves so I don't feel the pain... I am going to get more info on this... but he is a specailist and deals with all the problem patients like me.
Oh well.... as if I have anything else going on, nothing exciting so I guess I will have another surgery :)
I will have alot more info tomorrow....
Other than that things are only okay.... alot going on at work but, nothing with me directly though.
*hugs, humps and hot doctors*

Thu, 27 Apr 2006 00:00:04 GMT

Today's horoscope:
You and your heart are going to sit down for a little heart-to-heart. Well, okay, maybe it's more accurate to call it a mind-to-heart. Or mind-and-body-to-heart. Whatever. You're going to ask your heart a few hard questions and then, if your heart wants to ask you some hard questions, it gets to. Then you have to answer (fair is fair!), and, ideally, by the end of the conversation you two will come to a whole new understanding.
Sounds like I need to sort some things out... YIKES!
Overall a good day. My can still hurts from the shot in it yesterday but, it was my last one and in exactly 3 weeks I will have so sort of answers... surgery... more tests... something. I will just have to wait and see!
Well, off to do laundry so I can wrok the next 3 days...all day long...UGH
*hugs, humps and new stuff from Victorias Secret*

Tue, 25 Apr 2006 00:45:24 GMT

Today's horoscope:
Why keep arguing about things that you can't change? Try giving the situation some time instead. Once you learn to relax and let the universe drive, you might end up at a surprisingly pleasant destination
YIKES!!! Another one that is too in sync with my life...
That's about all I got today
*hugs, humps and postcards*

Sun, 23 Apr 2006 23:58:52 GMT

Let's see, so much to say but, can't seem to put my thoughts into words anymore...UGH!
Once again I am still stressing about all the medical crap I have going on...there is nothing I can do about it until I talk to the doctor in May. So, I should just not think about it until then... that is alot easier said than done. But, I try... but even the strongest people break down... and I consider myself a strong person.

One of the people I am closest to in this world is out of town right now... I think that a little piece of me is lost with out him... actually a big piece. He has been my rock lately... he has been there for me through everything. He seems to be one of the few people that can turn my day around. This is the type of person that I should be dating but... that's another story. I have some people in my life that know me so well and then there are some that just don't get it!!! (there's alot more to that story)

I have my last shot on Tuesday morning... they aren't working but, I am going to get the last one as per my new doctor. I still have an ugly amount of pain and hoping that my appointment in May will bring me some closure... whatever that may be. One of these days I will wake up and feel good... hopefully that day will come soon!

Well, I am off to go do laundry... fun fun
*hugs, humps and pirates*

Sun, 16 Apr 2006 18:07:21 GMT

Well, it's about time for an update!! Not too much new going on... but, here it goes!
I have another doctors appointment with a specialist in May... so, basically that means, another surgery. I am not being negative, I am being realistic... but, whatever they need to do to make me feel better, I am ready for it. I am so sick of feeling like crap everyday... this has been going on for a year now...UGH
It was one of my friends birthdays yesterday and we went out and had a couple drinks... I had a great time! He just makes me forget about all this medical bullshit that I am going through. He's not a boyfriend because they are too much drama but, he is a really good friend... super hot too! (we are going to be pirates together... it's a long story) I think I drank too much... but, I had fun and I think he did too. He just completely understands me and is an amazing person. I have a lot of really great friends... I am going to need them to be there for me through all this medical crap!
On another subject, I really want another tattoo... I am thinking about the my leo zodiac symbol on my ankle... I was going to get it on my hip but, I figure if I am going to have another surgery I dont want it to get all jacked up! Decisions, decisions...
Well, off to find my Easter basket...LOL
*hugs, humps and marshmallow peeps*

Thu, 06 Apr 2006 00:11:58 GMT

Today's Horoscope:
You need to be straight about what you're feeling, whether it relates to your sweetie or your roommates or your job. A little honesty goes a long way, even if it's hard to get started.
Well, that about sums up my day! Had a shitty day at work and was super close to saying fuck it all and walking out! But, after a brief shouting match with the boss (that I won) I decided to stay... atleast for now.
Okay... that's enough about work, let's bitch about my health now...LOL I am feeling like shit everyday (again)... it's sucks. I am getting so frustrated with it all and I am having a really hard time staying positive. I find myself constantly wondering what is going to happen and what they are going to do next. It scares me and I have broke down alot... more tears than I care to admit. I just wish I had someone that I could hug and cry one everytime I needed to, no matter what time it was. UGH!
Well, I am off to go get a drink... I think I need one!
*hugs, humps and mixed drinks*

Tue, 04 Apr 2006 17:06:01 GMT

Time for an update! I had another ultrasound this morning...fun fun!
Anyway, hopefully this will help them figure out something.   I am sick
of feeling like garbage everyday. I had 2 breakdowns on Saturday and
that's not good. I just was thinking about all this medical crap way
too much. But, a really good friend come over and cheered me up, he
rocks! I don't know what I would do with out him. Like I said, I
have some really great and supportive friends, and I am grateful to
have them. I sometimes feel like I am in a never ending loop of medical
bullshit... stop this ride, I want to get the fuck off!!  It's so
hard to stay positive.. but I am trying. Here's positive... I am
positive I am going to have to have another surgery.   Just kidding,
but, if I have to, that's just the cards I was dealt. (I want a new
deck) I will force me to take some time off and slow down alittle
bit.
Anyway, other than that, I posted some new pics on my myspace account.
A friend of mine took them for me, I just wanted some pictures taken,
something alittle different. I had fun doing it and think them came
out pretty good. I will post more pictures when I get the rest.
Well that's enough for now, back to hell, I mean work.
*hugs, humps and test results*

STOLEN!!!!

Mon, 03 Apr 2006 00:43:20 GMT

More questions and shit...

Last people

1. You hung out with? my sister & brother in law

2. Saw you cry? Jim

3. Went to the movies with you? no clue... it's been that long

4. You went to the mall with? myself

5. You went to dinner with? my sister & brother in law

6. You talked on the phone? Jim

7. Said 'I love you' to you and really meant it: my dad

8. Made you laugh? Jim

Would you rather...

1. Pierce your nose or tongue? nose

2. Be serious or be funny? funny

3. Drink whole or skim milk? chocolate... that's the only milk

4. Die in a fire or drown? fire

5. Spend time with your parents or enemies? parents... my mom rock

THIS OR THAT

1. Flowers or candy? flowers

2. Gray or black? black

3. Color or Black and white photos? black & white

4. Lust or love? love

5. Sunrise or sunset? sunset

6. M&Ms or Skittles? m&ms

7. Staying up late or waking up early? waking up early

A N S W E R . T R U T H F U L L Y !!

1. Do you like anyone? yep!!!

2. Do they know it? I think so...

D O . Y O U . P R E F E R

1. Sun or moon? moon

2. Winter or Fall? Fall

3. Left or right? right

4. 10 acquaintances or having two best friends? two best friends

5. Sunny or rainy? sun

6. Vanilla ice cream or chocolate ice cream? chocolate

7. Vodka or Jack? vodka

A B O U T . Y O U!

1. What time is it? 8:35pm

2. First and middle Name: Sara Amber

3. Nickname(s): little bum, seeya

4. hair color? blond with dark underneath

5. What do you want? to feel better

6. Where do you want to live? someplace warm

7. How many kids do you want? not sure if I can have them :(

8. You want to get married? possibly

U N I Q U E !

1. Nervous habit: biting my nails

2. Are you double jointed? yep

3. Can you roll your tongue? nope

5. Can you cross your eyes? yep

6. Do you make your bed daily? always

R A N D O M

1. Which shoe goes on first? whichever one I pick up first

2. Ever thrown a shoe at someone? nope

O T H E R

1. Do you twirl your spaghetti or cut it? cut it

2. Have you ever eaten Spam? yep... UGH...GROSS

3. Favorite ice cream: cookies & cream... as of right now

4. How many kinds of cereal are in your cabinet? 2

5. What's your favorite beverage? a good glass of wine

7. Do you cook? nope

IN . T H E . L A S T . M O N T H . H A V E . Y O U ?

1. Had a b/f or g/f?: nope :(

2. Bought something: of course

4. Sang: yep... not very good though

5. Been hugged: yep...my a really good friend

6. Felt stupid: yep

7. Missed someone? yep

8. Danced crazy? nope

9. Gotten your hair cut: yep and some new color

10. Cried: yep... yesterday

11. Lied: I never lie

12. Snuck out of the house? don't need to

13. Felt you just did something completely pointless: yep

Fri, 31 Mar 2006 02:37:26 GMT

Well... I figured it was time for an update... so, here it goes.
I went to another doctor today... got my shot in the ass and I am still freaking sore!! Anyway, I have another sonogram for next week and then she will go from there. Possibly another surgey... not sure. I will have to just have to wait and see.
Things are going good otherwise... been hanging out with friends... I have some amazing people in my life. So people have been there for me more than I could ever expect.... thanks. (they know who they are).
I went out with a friend tonight and he took my mind off of all the medical drama and, it was good to see him. There are just some people in my life that have very special places in my heart and they are irreplacable.
I am just sick of dealing with all the pain.... and I am ready to feel better again... whatever it takes. I know I have done my share of crying in the last couple weeks... I have just been drained emotionally from all this medical stuff.
Well, I am off to bed.
*hugs, humps and more tests*

Fri, 24 Mar 2006 04:05:30 GMT

Well, time for an update. Things are going well on my end other than my medical problems. I have another doctors appointment on Thursday for a second opinion... The doctor I have been seeing is pretty much a jerk... he told there was nothing wrong and all the pain I am having is normal. Ahh... I don't think so... there is definitely something wrong with me. They went from telling me on the phone that I may have to have another surgery to nothing being wrong with me (other than the endometriosis). I just have way too much pain for there to be nothing more wrong. I think that with my several prior surgerys that there is definitely something wrong.
Anyway, I have been working my ass off and haven't had too much of a social life. I am just glad that I have some really close and supportive friends that I have really needed in the last couple weeks... this whole medical crap is really draining me and I have shed my share of tears.
Well, off to bed!
*hugs, humps and 2nd opinions*

stolen from the rest of you :)

Mon, 20 Mar 2006 00:39:11 GMT

Everyone else did it... so here it goes

1. How tall are you barefoot? 5'6" but, I always have heels on... so I am usually 3 inches taller

2. Have you ever smoked heroin? nope

3. Do you own a gun? nope, but I want to learn to shoot one sometime soon

4. Rehab? for what? the only rehab I need is from dealing with assclowns

5. Do you get nervous before "meeting the parents"? nope

6. What do you think of hot dogs? YUCK

7. What's your favorite Christmas song? the one with the Heat Miser

8. What do you prefer to drink in the morning? Pepsi

9. Do you do push-ups? occasionally

10. Have you ever done ecstacy? nope

11. Are you vegan? don't know waht that is *giggle*

12. Do you like painkillers? theyake me pukey!

13. What is your secret weapon to lure in the opposite sex? ahh...my ass... actually I cast spells on them and that's my secret weapon

14. Do you own a knife? do steak knives count?

15. Do you have A.D.D? nope

16. Date of birth? 08/01/73

17. Top 3 thoughts at this exact moment:
~ what can I eat
~ '206'
~ tomorrows payday... WOO HOO

18. Name the last 3 things you have bought:
~ stuff from Victorias Scret
~ a magazine
~ a pepsi

19. Name five drinks you regularly drink:
~ Pepsi
~ water
~ orange juice
that's about it

20. What time did you wake up today? 7 am

21. Current hair? blonde on top, darker underneath (see previous entry) .

22. Current worry? my medical problems... UGH

23. Current hate? people who lie and/or disrespect me

24. Favorite places to be? in someone's arms

25. Least favorite places to be? at the hell hole they call work

26. Where would you like to go? some place warm where I can run around half naked :)

27. Do you own slippers? yep

28. Where do you think you'll be in 10 yrs? hopefully someplace better

29. Do you burn or tan? tan

30. Last thing you ate? fritos

31. Would you be a pirate? eyepatches are hot

32. Last time you had an alcoholic drink? some really good wine with a really good friend

33. What songs do you sing in the shower? whatever is in my head

34. What did you fear was going to get you at night as as a child? don't remember

35. What's in your pockets right now? no pockets...

36. Last thing that made you laugh? a friend that stopped in work today... he always makes me laugh

37. Best bed sheets you had as a child? as a child, hell I have Captain America on my bed right now

38. Worst injury you've ever had? other than my surgergies, my broken arm

40. How many TVs do you have in your house? 4

41. Who is your loudest friend? not sure... try to avoid loud noises & people

42. Who is your most silent friend? not sure

43. Does someone have a crush on you? I think so

44. Do you wish on stars? all the time

45. What are your favorite books? don't do books

46. What is your favorite candy? it changes

47. What song do/did you want played at your wedding? Nick Lachey ~ This I Swear (didnt get married though... THANK GOD)

48. What song do you want played at your funeral? ahh...don't know

49. What were you doing 12AM last night? sleeping

50. Do you love the pain a tattoo brings? yep...kinda addicting

Tue, 14 Mar 2006 02:24:59 GMT

Well... I just had a really stressful day but, over the weekend I switched hair color again.

Well, you can't really tell but, it's blond on top and dark underneath.

Anyway, as far as my day, I am back to feeling like shit again so I called the doctor and I have an appointment on the 30th... and there is a possibilty of another surgery.... since the shots aren't really working. So I had a couple breakdowns at work today.   But, I had a friend of mine call me right after I found out all of this and he came and picked me up for lunch and let me cry on his shoulder. I told him that if I have to have another surgery he would have to kick up some flowers. But, he said he doesn't do flowers, so I jokingly said jewelry then.... he looked at me and pulled out a small package that had a cross in it... I had told him that I really liked his gold cross and so he had bought me one. I was shocked... it made my day! It's the little things in life that keep me going. I was just happy that I could vent to him and cry on his shoulder... and he took the time to see me and was concerned... I never expected anything else. It just makes me that much more grateful for people like that in my life.  My friends and family give my faith that there are good people out there and they all aren't assclowns... now if only I could find a boyfriend... LOL
His horoscope for today was : Someone's health concerns are rubbing off on you. Get a checkup to clear your mind. Kinda freaky!
Anyway, so know I have all these thoughts going through my head about whether or not I am going to have to have another surgery or not so I am trying to put it out of my head until my appointment but, it isnt working real well.  I am just glad that I got to vent to a couple of really good friends about it today... THANKS!!!
Well, I am off to watch some tv and go to bed and try not to dwell on it (yeah right)
*hugs, humps and more doctors*

stolen from everyone else

Thu, 09 Mar 2006 02:56:34 GMT

Put an X in the boxes that apply to you.

[x] I am 18+
[ ] I am shorter than 5'4.
[x] I think I'm pretty cute.
[x] I have many scars.
[x] I tan easily.
[x] I can drive.
[ ] I wish my hair was a different color.
[x] I have friends who have never seen my natural hair color.
[x] I have a tattoo.
[x] I am self-conscious about my appearance
[x ] I have/I've had braces.
[ ] I wear glasses.
[x] I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.
[x] I've been told I'm attractive by a complete stranger.
[x] I have more than 2 piercings.
[x] I have piercings in places besides my ears.
[ ] I have freckles.

Family/Home Life
[x] I've sworn at my parents.
[ ] My biological parents are together.
[ ] I have a sibling less than one year old.
[x] I want to have kids someday.
[ ] I've had children.
[ ] I've lost a child.

School/Work
[ ] I'm in school.
[x] I have a job.
[x] I've fallen asleep at work/school.
[ ] I almost always do my homework.
[ ] I've missed a week or more of school.
[ ] I failed more than 1 class last year
[ ] I've stolen something from my job
[x] I've been fired.

Embarrassment
[x] I've slipped out a "lol" in a spoken conversation.
[x] I've laughed so hard I've cried.
[x] I've glued my hand to something
[x] I've laughed till some kind of beverage came out of my nose.
[x] I've had my pants rip in public

Health
[ ] I was born with a disease/impairment.
[x] I've gotten stitches/staples/glue
[x] I've broken a bone
[ ] I've had my tonsils removed.
[x] I've sat in a doctors office/emergency room with a friend/relative
[x]I've had my wisdom teeth removed.
[x] I had a serious surgery.
[x] I've had chicken pox.

Traveling
[x] I've driven over 200 miles in one day.
[x] I've been on a plane.
[x] I've been to Canada.
[x] I've been to Mexico.
[x] I've been to Niagara Falls.
[ ] I've been to Japan.
[ ] I've Celebrated Mardi Gras in New Orleans.
[ ] I've been to Europe.
[ ] I've been to Africa.

Experiences
[x] I've gotten lost in my city.
[x] I've seen a shooting star.
[x] I've wished on a star.
[ ] I've seen a meteor shower.
[x] I've gone out in public in my pajamas.
[x] I've pushed all the buttons on an elevator
[x] I've kicked a guy in the nuts
[x] I've been to a casino
[ ] I've been skydiving.
[x] I've gone skinny dipping.
[ ] I've drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour.
[x] I've crashed a car
[x] I've been in a play
[x] I've caught a snowflake on my tongue.
[x] I've played a prank on someone.
[x] I've ridden in a taxi.
[x] I've eaten Sushi.
[ ] I've been skiing

Relationships
[x] I'm single
[ ] I'm in a relationship.
[ ] I'm engaged.
[ ] I'm married
[x]I've gone on a blind date.
[ ] I've been the dumpee more than the dumper.
[x] I miss someone right now.
[x] I have a fear of abandonment.
[x] i've been the dumper more than dumpee
[ ] I've gotten divorced
[x] I've had feelings for someone who didn't have them back.
[ ] I've told someone I loved them when I didn't.
[ ] I've told someone I didn't love them when I did.
[x] I've kept something from a past relationship.

Honesty/Crime
[ ] I've done something I promised someone else I wouldn't
[x] I've done something I promised myself I wouldn't.
[x] I have lied to my parents about where I am.
[ ] I am keeping a secret from the world
[x] I've cheated while playing a game
[ ] I've cheated on a test
[x] I've run a red light.
[x] I've been suspended from school.
[ ] I've witnessed a crime.
[x] I've been in a fist fight.
[ ]I've been arrested.

Drugs/Alcohol

[x] I've consumed alcohol
[ ] I regularly drink.
[x]I've passed out from drinking.
[ ]I have passed out drunk at least once in the past 6 months.
[ ] I've eaten shrooms.
[ ] I've popped E.
[ ] I've inhaled Nitrous.
[ ] I've done hard drugs.
[ ]I have cough drops when I'm not sick.
[ ]I can't swallow pills.
[x] I can swallow about 5 pills at a time no problem.
[ ] I have been diagnosed with clinical depression.
[ ]I take anti-depressants.
[x] I've slept an entire day when I didn't need it.
[ ] addicted to self harm.
[x] I've woken up crying.

Materialism
[x] I own over 5 rap CDs.
[x] I own an iPod or MP3 player
[ ] I have an unhealthy obsession with anime/manga.
[x]I own multiple designer purses, costing over $100 a piece.
[x] I own something from Hot Topic.
[ ] I own something from Pac Sun.
[ ] I collect comic books
[ ] I own something from The Gap
[x]I own something I got on e-bay
[ ] I own something from Abercrombie.

Random
[ ] I can sing well.
[ ]I've stolen a tray from a fast food restaurant.
[ ] I open up to others easily.
[x] I watch the news.
[ ] I don't kill bugs.
[x] I am a morning person.
[x] I paid for my cell phone ring tone
[ ] I'm a snob about grammar.
[ ]I am a sports fanatic.
[x] I twirl my hair
[ ] I have "x"s in my screen name
[x] I love being neat
[ ] I love Spam
[ ]I've copied more than 30 CD's in a day
[x] I bake well
[ ] My favorite color is either white, yellow, pink, red or blue
[ ] I've worn pajamas to school.
[ ] I know how to shoot a gun.
[ ] I am guilty of tYpInG lIkE tHiS.
[x] I laugh at things most people wouldn't find funny.
[x] I eat fast food weekly.
[ ] I am online 24/7, even as an away message.
[ ] I've not turned anything in and still got an A in a certain class

Wed, 08 Mar 2006 12:23:04 GMT

*burp*
That's about all I got, long crappy day yesterday for the most part but, it ended well! And today will be better.
Off to get ready for work
*hugs, humps and spooning*

Sun, 05 Mar 2006 02:44:22 GMT

Random thoughts and stuff....
I'm bored so I figured I would make a list of things I really like:
~ well dressed, good smelling men (huge turn on)
~ black boots (you can never have too many pairs)
~ random phone calls / text messages
~ guys that know how to kiss well
~ spooning
~ Victoria's Secret
~ a hug that never ends
~ reality tv
~ songs that mean something
~ people that know what they want and go after it
~ Levis 518 jeans
~ captain & coke
~ comments on my journal :)
Well, off to find somthing to do... or find some trouble to get into :)
*hugs, humps and random lists*

Fri, 03 Mar 2006 03:27:40 GMT

It's amazes me how some people are so damn stupid. The crackhead guy from Sunday that I hung up on several times feels the need to try to degrade me because I wont go out with him... hey assclown you sent me texts everyday how you missed me and you wanted to see me and then all of a sudden I'm crazy. The only way I would be crazy is if I went out with your lame ass... it took me a total of 4 hours of being seen with you that I realized I would rather run myself over with my own car than deal with your dumbass. But, since I don't want to deal with him he feels the need to try and hurt me with his words...NICE TRY LOSER, it makes me laugh at how pathetic you are.
Other than that, things are going well! One less assclown to deal with. Maybe him and Tony should get together and have some lunch...LOL
I have another shot next week, but medically I am doing great!
Things are great, I am having fun at job 2 and life is good!
*hugs, humps and no crackheads allowed*

Thu, 02 Mar 2006 02:46:53 GMT

Happy Hump Day!
Well, I have had the best week... I am so happy. I had a couple unexpected things happen lately... little things but, it's the little things that matter. Went out with a friend last night and had a great time...event though I was butt tired from working 13 hours, I sucked it up and went out. I'm glad I did but, now I am paying for it.
Not much going on... working, sleeping and eating that's about all I got.
Things are good and I am very happy with the way things are going in my life. I have sucessfully weeded out all the assclowns and have no drama at all! YAY!!!
Still dedicated to the gym... and I am loving it there...it makes me feel so much better!
Well, off to bed!
*hugs, humps and happiness*

Mon, 27 Feb 2006 00:23:25 GMT

Well, the weekend is over and I worked every day of it, but for the most part is was a good weekend. Except for the assclowns in my life that feel the need to call or text all the time when they know I am at work and can't answer. Hey assclown don't call me twice within 15 minutes... obviously I am fucking busy and I will call you back. Another assclown out of my life. WOO HOO. Things are definitely looking up! I dont need these type of people in my life... drama whores and unhappy with thier own life they need to try and bring my down.... NOT GOING TO HAPPEN! Obviously you aren't a true friend...
I will have everything paid off in no time... YAY
Anyway, I feel great, been busting my ass at the gym and things are great!!!
Off to eat dinner, relax and get some sleep!
*hugs, humps, and 6 pack abs*

Tue, 21 Feb 2006 01:39:30 GMT

SARA'S THOUGHT FOR THE DAY:
THINK BEFORE YOU SPEAK!
IT WILL SAVE YOU FROM LOOKING LIKE AN ASSCLOWN LATER!

Well, that's about all I got... sick of people saying shit that they have no clue about... don't judge me until you have walked in my shoes and have been what I have been through. And until you take the chance to know me, leave your damn comments to yourself because there is a good chance you are wrong.

*hugs, humps and a good workout at the gym*

Mon, 20 Feb 2006 01:07:32 GMT

Time for an update... again... strange day and had to put it all on here.
The day started out with lunch with a friend... someone that makes me laugh... a good person to talk to. While I am out with him Jody is playing message tag with me... what's up with that... I rarely hear from him. The messages were alittle out there but, I was thinking to myself, what the hell is going on... Jody never messages me... but, ordered another drink and all was ok. Later, Jeff messaged me... WTF... is it day of the exs? Anyway, I met Jeff at Starbucks while he was on his break from work... and guess who walks in Starbucks right after us... Jody! I couldn't help but laugh... I never go to Starbucks and in the 20 minutes I was there, I saw two exs. Kinda strange... must be something in the water. I was nice to see Jeff... I havent seen him in awhile, and I dont like to burn bridges, so I figured I had nothing to lose. Just kinda odd that they both messaged me... oh well... like I said maybe there is something in the water.
On another note... I had a friend get pissed at me for no reason and asked me to lose his email... WTF? I did nothing to him and apparently he has issues with something... Oh well, it was nice emailing him but I dont need drama in my life. I am finally starting to feel good medically, I need my friends to be happy for me and not turn thier back. I guess some people really dont understand what I have been through medically, physically and with dating in the last year...
Well, off to do laundry and eat again. It was a pretty good weekend and it was nice to see the exs :)
*hugs, humps and a long ass work week*

Sun, 19 Feb 2006 03:07:19 GMT

Well, another day at the new part time job... things are going better than expected. I get paid every week there so that should help me out...it will be my spending money and perscription money...LOL

I got an unexpected phone call today... It made my day! It's the little things in life that keep me happy.

I got a chance to wear Vilia's scarf this weekend... I love it... it's so freaking cold but, my neck was warm! She rocks!

Oh well, off to find dinner and wait to win the powerball tonight!

*hugs, humps and a winning lottery ticket*

Sat, 18 Feb 2006 03:04:20 GMT

TGIF!! Well, I have been ridiciously busy lately. I started a new part time job at Iggle Video and tonight was my first night. Things went well and it seems like I will be okay there... it's just going to take some getting used to. I really need a day off, I have one day off in the last month and I am exhausted! But, medically, I have been feeling great, I just need to slow my work schedule down alittle. Other than that, not a whole lot going on.
I miss hanging out with my friends but, I have to do what I have to do right now. My real friends will support me! I appreciate all the emails and calls I get... its the way to get to my heart if that's where you want to be. I know that I can't answer the phone alot since I work a zillion hours but, the fact that someone thought to call was appraciated !
Off to get some sleep ... ZZZ
*hugs, humps and a day off soon*